The Progenitor came to see me this morning when I was writing in the forest. They gave me this journal and pen, saying that I should use them to record my thoughts and experiences during my next adventure. They didn’t expand on what that adventure will be or when it will be. I am intrigued and excited to find out. Maybe it means I’ll soon be allowed to explore another world. That has been my dream for a while now… Imagine if this book really does become my journal of my adventures in a new world. That would be amazing.
The day has arrived! After years of preparation, I am finally able to say goodbye to Caelis and head off to start my next adventure in a new world. I am so excited!
Saying goodbye is hard, of course, but it’s only for now. I’ll return to Caelis someday. I do love Caelis so… Its beautiful forests and mountains. The way everything almost seems to dance and sing together. The feeling of connection you get while weaving magic. That’s what I’ll miss the most, at least at first.
The world I’m going to doesn’t have magic. Not like we have at least. It will take some getting used to. They have developed tools for cooking and such, so I’m not worried about missing domestic types of magic but what about my writing?
In that world I won’t be able to use word-magic to help me write things that touch people’s hearts. Will my words alone be enough?... Well, only time will tell. No point in getting discouraged before I try.
I have so many ideas for things to do once I get to the new world. Though most will have to wait for a bit; I need to start by just focusing on getting settled in and incorporated into the new world. But once that is done I am going to make a guild! A beautiful and vibrant guild where adventurers, storytellers, crafters, merchants, everyone can come together to share and grow. It will be a home away from home. A second family. Teammates and teachers. A source of support for whoever needs it. A safe space to explore and experiment. A place to learn and hone skills. A place to laugh and have fun with friends. A place to belong.
I love guilds so much. I hope I can make a guild that people in the new world will enjoy. It will look a bit different to the guilds I’m used to here, but I think it will work.
But enough about that. I have to go finish saying goodbye to everyone. Then it’s off to the Progenitor’s house so that I can say goodbye to them and then have them send me off to the new world.
I’ve made it. I’ve really traveled to a different world. It was an interesting experience that is hard to describe. It felt like we were traveling for both an instant and an eternity. Time had even less meaning than it does in the eternal land of Caelis. The process of being transformed to a spirit-form was a bit unnerving too. I’m glad the Progenitor was with me the whole time. Going through inter-world travel without them holding onto me sounds terrifying. But I made it safe and sound thanks to them. They gave me one final farewell and then left me to start my new adventure.
They dropped me off in the middle of a forest. Honestly, this is the perfect place for me to start at. I find forests so relaxing. I’ll probably stay here for a couple days at least. I’m still feeling a little shaken from the transformation and traveling. I’ll relax in this beautiful forest for a bit and then start exploring the area once I feel more grounded.
I’ve been in this world for a couple weeks now. I haven’t moved from where I landed yet but it has already been quite a journey. I thought I would rest for a couple days and then start exploring but it is taking me longer to find my footing than I imagined it would. It’s been a strange and uneasy feeling. I’ve been feeling happy, excited, nervous, sad, lonely, empty, and fulfilled all at the same time. And of course, that on top of the odd experience of being in a spirit-form and going through inter-world travel.
I was warned that the transformation and traveling is unsettling and that grief from leaving Caelis can hit hard but I guess I thought I would be the exception. I was warned and given tips and tools for coping, so I should be ok. It’s just taking more time to adjust than I thought it would. As much as I would love to be out exploring right now, I am taking things slow and letting myself adjust and grieve at whatever pace I need to.
The grief did catch me by surprise. It’s not that I regret or am sad about leaving Caelis but there is still a sense of separation and loss that can’t be avoided. Things and people that I once had at easy reach are now out of reach for the foreseeable future.
Grief can be an odd experience. There isn’t anything quite like it. I’m not really thinking about how I have lost some of the things I once had but some part of me feels that loss anyways. There is only so much I can do about those feelings. For the most part I just need to sit with the grief and let it run its course. After all, grief isn’t a bad thing. In fact it can be quite beautiful in its own way.
Grief can seem scary at first, it can even feel like you are losing control or like the world is falling apart. But once you accept that grief isn’t your enemy and that you aren’t actually falling apart, grief isn’t that bad. Not that grief doesn’t take a toll on you when you are in the depths of it because it definitely does. Just take your time and go at your own pace. That’s what I’ve been doing and what I will be doing for a few more days probably. Now I am going to go lay down again because I am exhausted.
I’m finally starting to feel better. I have more energy now and don’t feel the need to spend most of the day asleep/resting. I’m feeling more or less at home in my spirit-form now which is nice. There are definitely pros and cons to having a spirit-form instead of a physical body. I can’t really interact with things in this world without a physical body but in exchange I can travel around more easily and can’t feel physical pain. At least I can still use everything that I brought with me to this world. For example this pen and journal and the others that I brought. I don’t think I would have survived if I couldn’t write.
The feelings of grief have subsided significantly, which is the main reason why I finally have more energy that I can use for other things besides coping and resting. I’ll start exploring the area soon. I’ll take it slow for the first few days, don’t want to push myself too hard or too fast, but I’m confident that I will be up to 100% soon. And once I am, the adventure really begins!
The Progenitor really picked the most amazing place for me to start my new adventure! It’s a lush forest with the ocean on one side and mountains on the other. I didn’t think anywhere could match the beauty of Caelis but this place isn’t far off.
It is so beautiful and inspiring here. I feel at peace and my pen is dancing so well. I’m still getting used to writing without magic but it isn’t too bad. Though I haven’t been able to see how readers respond to it yet. Hopefully my writing can still touch people without the words being imbued with magic….
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